feelings...

(sometimes that's what i feel like) ha

are they always strong?
do they always linger?
is there always some sort of trigger?

i can pray.
i can hope.
i can attempt.
but i seem to fail in this area.

the last 5 years have been pretty stinking great overall, sure...there were bad days, or even bad weeks/months but all in all i learned and grew and made some of the best friends in the entire world. now these years, i want to remember the memories, the emotions, the friends, the experiences....

but...what about before those years? what if i'd rather not remember. if i want that part of my life pushed so far back in my memory that i have a hard time remembering it--even when things remind me of that time.

i still remember being told this story about a lady who wanted so badly to forget this certain experience/person/time in her life. she prayed and prayed and moved on with her life as much as possible--and eventually she barley had any recollection of that previous time in her life. i desire this--the more i think today the more i wish this were possible. i've prayed the prayer--but there is still this lack of moving on (sometimes) in this area.

my friends are such great encouragement to me especially in this area but i just wish that it'd be gone.

anyways--lalalalal that was a bunch of blah, huh. today is Labor Day...i like holidays--honestly, i'm not really sure how/when this one came up or what it's for (unless it's really a day to rest) but i like it regardless.

Hurricane Gustav is still coming to New Orleans. Boy do I hope it turns and hits somewhere else--and then I guess there's another storm behind "Him". --boo, this is the thing about the south. At least we/Savannah rarely gets hit. Oh, and my parents are coming in less than 2 weeks, woo.

well, it's time to un-labor.