Georgia birthdays are nothing compared to my Kansas birthdays. No Kelly Clarkson, no Kathouse, no Casino, no World's of Fun, no best friends....BUT--it wasn't bad, and I'm blessed by the people around me out here. It's hard but I really am lucky for the people here....I sometimes forget that because I remember how much I miss all of my friends (and even more so because for some reason God blessed me with SOOO many really good friends college.)

-I got some great gifts though, presents, gift cards, really pretty flowers, and lots of great cards. THANKYOU!!

I missed home today or whatever it was that I called home. These tears had meaning...

blah, stinky post.
better one to come.

--A man from Uganda, who was sponsored by World Vision when he was younger spoke at late church tonight, he's going to an Ivy League school and getting his masters in Washington, pretty incredible story, thought I'd share.

One more thing. It's supposed to be suuuuuper hot this week, yuck.
One one more thing. Bugs--they don't leave.

every second counts

so i'm going on week 6 here.

crazy? sorta. sometimes it feels like i've been here much longer--sometimes much shorter. i don't know when it'll start feeling like home. don't get me wrong, i feel fairly comfortable around here BUT for those who know me, know how i act when i'm comfortable, when it's "home" to me would know that i'm not quite there yet.

so far:
-trips to the beach. 2
-new friends named tiffany/tiffanie. 2
-mellow mushroom pizza. 2
-cute boys met. 0
-new friends made. ummm, i duno.

anyways. you know--my birthday is in like a week and the greatest present ever would be for you--all of you, to come visit. seriously, 1 day, 1 week, anything....

my parents are putting their house up for sale on monday. they're planning to move to florida around november ish. they'll be about 6-7 hours away but much closer than 18-19. they also bought a new car today.

i want one.

ugh, sometimes i want a lot of things. some good, possibly needed, some so far from that i need to get my thoughts back on track. i have everything i need (out here in savannah too, yes). --side note-- i will be moving out from where i am currently living in November, but I have good reasons to do so.

come to catalyst in october. ok? it's really great.
listen to some sermons from SCC (savannah christian church) online- man, they're good
apply for a job at SCC too. that'd make my day :)

the end for now.
it's going fine. i promise it is.

how you doin'?

well. i like her.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know.

Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.