flying.

2008 flew by... at least in retrospect it totally did.

and to see where i was at the beginning of the year (uggh, hated life -- hah) and now where i am at the end of the year (it's WONDERFUL....)

not much more than that to say right now.
we had our work christmas party today! it was fun -- got a $20.00 gift card to target so that never hurts. getting ready to have small group at my house (we are watching The Truth Project -- my advice, unless you want to feel like you're taking another college Bible course don't do it)

it's freezing here, almost. no one told me it was cold in savannah.

i THINK i may go to kc for new years. sounds fun. new years kiss? neah...but fun at least.

xoxo.

--will some things never change? will some genders never change? :)

i won't hesitate no more, no more

how many times can i break till i shatter. over the line can't define what i'm after.

--i made it through the crowds at 3am yesterday morning. i can't say everyone did though...did you hear about the poor 37 year-old Wal-Mart worker who was trampled and died at a Wal-Mart in Long Island?? Seriously...what are we coming to? And then...when they closed the store because this man DIED people were mad at the other workers. Give me a break.

Destin was beautiful yesterday. Pictures to come soon. Went to the beach, shopped at a few outlets, checked out an Irish Pub with my parents, and then ate at P.F. Changs for dinner....a pretty wonderful day if you ask me.

Today on the other hand was long...and boring. I spent about 8 hours driving in the rain, the dark, and the construction/traffic back to Savannah. I am home now. And my roommate just put up a Christmas Tree. It's the most wonderful time of the year :)

Some of my friends get to hang out together this weekend and I won't lie I'm extremely jealous and bummed. I miss them...I miss all my friends. --Make new friends but keep the old, one is silver and the other's gold.-- Which one is which though??

2 new sorta fav songs: Shattered by O.A.R. and I'm Yours by Jason Mraz. Check them out - sooo good.

And for now, goodnight. If anyone reads this let me know :)

gobble gobble.

Thanksgiving...thank you pilgrims. I'd have to say the meal today was especially delicious. Walking on the beach after such a yummy meal isn't so bad either. It's weird my parents are living in Florida again....Thanksgiving and Christmas on the beach -- I guess there's nothing to complain about there.
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I am blessed, immensely. I have a wonderful family and a great group of friends who love me so much....not to mention I love them all too :) Sometimes things don't always go the way you want....seems to be a trend in this life of mine, but honestly...I suppose I wouldn't have it any other way.

FYI: I still totally and completely love my job. Seriously...I know I wasn't one who was fond of working and all but if I'm going to work then this is exactly what I want to be doing....and I don't think I could find a better church to do it at. In the mean time, prince charming....find your way to Savannah and sweep me off my feet. :)

No final plans for New Years Eve yet....New Orleans, Panama City Beach, good 'ol Savannah...not sure -- suggestions or if you'd like to visit I'm all yours! :)

Going shopping at 3am tomorrow so I suppose it's time to sleep.

Xoxo.

well

damn it.

at least it's Thanksgiving and I do have a lot to be thankful for.

living my life through....M.G.

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away."

"Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop."

70inNovember

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down
It feels so good
Wait until the dust settles

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down
Hold it up
You wait and see when the smoke clears

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Wear it out
Melt it down
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn

feelings...

(sometimes that's what i feel like) ha

are they always strong?
do they always linger?
is there always some sort of trigger?

i can pray.
i can hope.
i can attempt.
but i seem to fail in this area.

the last 5 years have been pretty stinking great overall, sure...there were bad days, or even bad weeks/months but all in all i learned and grew and made some of the best friends in the entire world. now these years, i want to remember the memories, the emotions, the friends, the experiences....

but...what about before those years? what if i'd rather not remember. if i want that part of my life pushed so far back in my memory that i have a hard time remembering it--even when things remind me of that time.

i still remember being told this story about a lady who wanted so badly to forget this certain experience/person/time in her life. she prayed and prayed and moved on with her life as much as possible--and eventually she barley had any recollection of that previous time in her life. i desire this--the more i think today the more i wish this were possible. i've prayed the prayer--but there is still this lack of moving on (sometimes) in this area.

my friends are such great encouragement to me especially in this area but i just wish that it'd be gone.

anyways--lalalalal that was a bunch of blah, huh. today is Labor Day...i like holidays--honestly, i'm not really sure how/when this one came up or what it's for (unless it's really a day to rest) but i like it regardless.

Hurricane Gustav is still coming to New Orleans. Boy do I hope it turns and hits somewhere else--and then I guess there's another storm behind "Him". --boo, this is the thing about the south. At least we/Savannah rarely gets hit. Oh, and my parents are coming in less than 2 weeks, woo.

well, it's time to un-labor.